Diagnosis

I went to the doctor today to have my ultrasound read. Thank god it was mostly good news. I have a large cyst on my left ovary which needs to be removed. There is nothing on the right, it was just pain transfer. They wanted to schedule the surgery for tomorrow, but I told them I wasn't ready. It is scheduled for next Tuesday instead.

I am so thankful that it is a relatively common problem which will not effect my ability to have children.

Thank you to everyone who was thinking about me.

Week 1 Results

Matt : loss of 3lbs

Sarah: loss of 5lbs

At least we didn't gain!!

Our Competition

Matt and I have decided to place bets on who can lose the most weight by our first anniversary (July 16th). I am so glad that we are doing this because it keeps me from cheating! I know that if I cheat, I might lose, and I can't do that!

Matt thinks it is a competition of methods. He is utilizing the "watch-what-you-eat-and-exercise-more-diet." I am attempting the South Beach Diet. Weigh in is tomorrow morning. We have almost completed our first week.

Anyone else have a wager?

Employment

Most of you know that I am currently working at a group home for girls. I have no previous experience in the social work field so every experience and every day is new to me.

The background of my job is that we are a treatment home for adolescent girls. The girls I currently deal with range in age from 13-17. They are in a group home because of two reasons, one being that their treatment plan would work best in that setting, and the other being that there is no where else for them to be.

All of these girls have something they are dealing with that is more than the average teen. The least of that being attachment disorder and abandonment issues. More severe issues can range from being suicidal to self mutilation to severe ADHD.

My job requires that I interact with these girls on a daily basis in a milieu that is as normal as possible. We eat dinner together, they do chores, and we give them an allowance. It is hard to get over the fact that these are not normal girls, they have issues. They look normal and they most of the time, act normal...until a crisis occurs. From stories I have been told some crazy things have happened.

The only things I have dealt with thus far have been cutting, screaming, yelling, slamming doors, and drawing ones own blood. I am sure as I gain experience the stories will follow.

Happy Birthday to me!

Today is my 23rd birthday. Matt gave me an envelope for a gift and left for work. He is always trying to be creative with my gifts. His effort is very sweet. Today he planned a treasure hunt for me within our house. At the end, I found my gift: Season One of "Dead Like Me"! He is wonderful and so good to me.

I love you, honey!

Update

Thank you to everyone who called and/or posted here. I appreciate the support.

I know that I didn't give much information on my previous post, but that is because I don't have it. I am scheduled for an ultrasound next Monday and will know more then or when I return to my doctor.

Everyone keeps telling me not to worry, that it is probably fine, but this is coming from people who already have children or guys who have no clue. There is nothing in this world that I want more than my own babies. Any complication standing in my way seems bigger to me than to others who are not living through it. So, I am going to worry every day until I know what is wrong.

Matt is doing a good job of trying to keep my mind off of it. He planned a surprise for my birthday tomorrow.

Thanks again for the support.

Doctor Visit

Went to the doctor today for random pelvic pain and other female problems. The news broke my heart.

There is a growth on each of my ovaries.

Not something I want to hear since Matt and I have not had children yet.

Happy Birthday to me.